Conflicted

I feel so dumb right now. 

I mean, no one has ever made me cry thrice in a day ever. 

I feel like a complete mess. 

A mess. 

A beautiful mess. 

I know I’d make sense of it as time passes though. 

Do i feel dumb? Yes. Stupid? Hi No. 

These things happen. I feel so powerless too. 

I wish i could sweep away all his problems with a snap of my fingers. 

Unfortunately, I can’t. Like, why am I a waterwork today? 

Miserable.

 Everything went to shambles. 

I tried to make things better. 

I felt being frozen was nothing. 

All I wanted was to see his smile. 

The one I always wanted to see in reality. 

I had lofty dreams of us making up and it being fine, and suddenly, it all crashes.

I think I just want space.

I think I need to think.

I’m happy and sad in rows.

Conflicted.